is thinking of carving out a new future for herself. I think maybe this
last year and all we've been thru may have hurt our relationship beyond
repair. I don't think she can forgive me for what I did with our
new born baby last Christmas.
she understands.... but that isn't the same as 'not blaming' When a woman
loses her child - her life is never the same again.
still love her like crazy. Sure, the last few months watching her destroy
herself on booze and madness has tainted my view of her slightly - but
then she was ill, wasn't she.
the type of guy to stand in the way of what ever she wants. I intend to
help her find what-ever will make her happy, even if it ends up to be another
point when she was ill, Van kept telling me that she needed to express
herself more... and that - in a sense - i was trapping her into my
things and direction in life.
spoken with her about this since, but who knows - maybe she needs to explore
and develop her own things.